Okay you know what? FUCK YOU EYEBROWS

I am fucking DONE trying to be normal, I can't do it. I just can't! I tried you know I really did.
I thought that I could go to college and get a job and eventually be a normal person but it didn't work out that way. I think some weird big thing in the universe is telling me to go and be myself and be a fucking dork and just not care. I can't care, and now that I am trying to get more involved in clubs and whatnot I don't care. I am completely over it. So this week I am probably going to shave my hair into a death hawk again and buy more black eyeliner to draw my eyebrows on again and wreck my clothes and BE MY FUCKING SELF.
That's who I am, no one will really ever understand it. No one is going to get it you know. But at the end of the day I am me, I have to love myself and if this is the path I go down; so fucking be it. I am just so tired all the time, I move through the normal world like a gawddamn slug.
Then I get to club or at my friend's place and I am great, happy and fine and perfect. That's how I want to be all the time. I want to be free and happy and whatever all the time. I CAN NOT BE THIS FAKE PERSON ANYMORE. It is tearing me down I am not in high school, I am not a child and if I have to live on the streets in these filthy, graveyard clothes then FINE. It will be worth it.
You don't like it? Bloodline family or random person, fuck you. This is me I REFUSE to be a shadow of myself.
This all started because I wanted to fix my eyebrows and ended up fucking them up and shaving them which I have been wanting to do for years. So everything I have been wanting to do, is getting done. Yup it is happening...